Left to my own devices, I seek to avoid all self-reprimand and probe at the extremes of a connection I never knew, in the hope that it will solidify another future for me.
I dislike my occupation, relations, abode.
I dislike my choices.
So this is what we have arrived at by way of summary (but not conclusion):
I am not capable of looking in mirrors and conversing with people purely because I am a bad chooser.